Randomness

I'm probably labelled as the girl who was almost never in class.. last term anyway.. wouldn't be surprised if one were to go "uh.... who is she again?"

Much has changed over the past 4 years. Looking at the class now.. I'm envious of how they spend their days. Hyper and happy souls I'd say. Outings after classes, endless late nights clubbing... I no longer have the mood nor drive to do so. Perhaps I am aging alittle too fast.. or maybe it's just the family situation that forced me into "growing up" or maturing faster then I'm supposed to... I guess its just depressing being the older one amongst the little ones and therefore the isolation, me unfriendly? I beg to differ. There's just no common topic (or maybe its just my plain stubborness and refusal to open my diamond coated lips..alston hun.. where are u when I need u).. perhaps if I were younger.. thinking back... I used to be like 'em. At the age whereby there are restrictions, when clubs were no-nos (unless you managed to sneak in and be the talk of the town) and when parents imposed rules and whatnots.... and the late nights out and later on sneaking back home on the sly... drinking and trying cigs for the very first time.. cheap thrills.. teenhood is just about the best years one can ever have. Now that there aren't any restrictions or whatsoever its plain boring but then again... I learnt to treasure my time with the family.

Sensual aren't they?

On a different note...

I used to think the parents were unreasonable, the ultimate jackasses (excuse the language) for nagging at no rhyme or reason, imposing curfews or even the ultimate act of confiscating handphones. Guess it was for the best.. they had my interest at heart as how I see it now having two teenage sisters. As the eldest.. I can't help but act that way towards them at times though I do try my best to be the nice and understanding sister and not that unreasonable bitch. Oh well.... they'll come to see in due time... perhaps in a couple of years. I will though pitch in to pay for their 21st birthday celebrations when the time comes. However annoying they are... they are afterall blood. Also.. the relationship with the parents.. pretty much more like friends.. funny how that happens.. the only diff.. I still get my moolah from 'em.

Gimme a time machine someone...........anyone. I wanna be 13 again :(